My Beliefs on Spirituality, Religion, & Faith

I wanted to write about my beliefs and thoughts about spirituality, religion, and faith today because I’ve been reflecting on these concepts all my life, but I feel as though I needed to write it all down- so here I am.

But before I begin explaining how I feel today, I want to think about the beginning of my life because it did shape me into the person I am today.

I was raised by two Mexican parents and primarily in Mexico, there is a strong and intense belief in God, Jesus, Mary, and Catholicism.

My parents were both raised by their parents to believe in God and were raised Catholic. So, that’s what they believe in and honor.

Me, being a child, I wanted to make mami and daddy proud and feel a sense of belonging in my family so I would listen to them and accept Catholicism as a part of my life as well.

I was deeply devoted to these beliefs for quite some time of my childhood and my teenage years. I was involved in helping, volunteering, and being a part of several events held at the church where my parents would take me.

It wasn’t until I was 17 years old that I stopped going to church and the reason I stopped going is because I was unaware that the Catholic church did not accept gay marriage.

I was deeply devoted to the church but when I realized that the religion I was a part of was discriminatory, I felt a lot of pain.

I remember feeling so confused and hurt that I stopped believing in God entirely.

My confusion lasted years and I didn’t want to think about religion anymore.

It wasn’t until I was 23-25 years old that I started to “believe again”.

Unfortunately, at that point in time, I went through a psychotic breakdown that lasted quite some time, and I was so petrified of myself and my thoughts that I was desperate for a hero and/or stability, so I temporarily started believing in God again.

But this didn’t truly last.

I say that because at this moment in time, I don’t have any answers.

If there is a God, which I’m not saying there isn’t, I don’t comprehend him/them, and I have surrendered to the realization that what matters most to me isn’t God or religion or spirituality or faith.

What I care about are having core beliefs, being as ethical as possible, becoming a healthier person, and spreading kindness.

I don’t shame any religion or belief, but I decided that I feel best when I tell myself: “I have no idea what is real and what isn’t. I just care about today”.

Now a days, I have been reading about Taoism/Daoism and Buddhism and the principles found in those religions are comforting to learn and read about.

I shy away from thinking about any religion or belief for extended periods of time because I feel it clouds my judgement.

Now, I know religion is really powerful and so is spirituality.

I am not denying that faith changes people- sometimes in remarkable ways.

But I wish the world was less judgmental.

I, myself, make judgements every single day, every single second of the day… so I am definitely not saying people should be like me.

But I try so hard to be compassionate, which I feel the world lacks a lot of and has lacked a lot of in all our years of existence as humans on Earth.

A lot of the people I have met in my life want to influcence others.

People are influenced by other things of course, but I have noticed that there is a lot of conflict when ideas don’t coincide with each other.

Specifically, in the United States, where I am from, there is barely any separation of religion and law.

There are people who consider themselves wiser for their beliefs in life and belittle others for their beliefs- whatever they may be.

Laws are being made each and every day that restrict people from taking care of themselves.

I am pro-abortion and pro-birth control because I feel that these are essential in our society.

Not everyone can afford having a child, nor being a good parent, and for whatever other reason, I find abortion to be a valid and reasonable thing to do when necessary.

And that’s just a few things that people disagree on.

I am not picking on any religion in particular right now, but I do find it offensive when others want to impose their lifestyle on others.

This goes for any belief, religion, or faith.

I’d rather we all learn to accept each other and our differences.

I recently have been really sad that beliefs, religion, and faith have even harmed others and/or impacted people’s lives in a negative/traumatic way.

My heart goes out to everyone that has been negatively impacted by this.

Although my thoughts about religion/spirituality/faith/beliefs may differ from others point of view, I still believe that this is the healthiest approach I can take at this time.

Thank you for reading! ❤

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