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Nowhere to say this and Nothing to hide
A True Story Trigger warnings: Grooming, Pedophiles, abuse, suicide This story isn’t just true. It also happens to be mine and today I chose to share it because this period in my life has impacted the course of my life in ways I am still trying to comprehend. I hope…
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“Depending On You”
A Poem “I depend on my little pack of cigarettes… To get me lightheaded with a sip of smoke. Sip, sip, sipping doesn’t fix anything at all… Yet I can’t let it go- just not quite yet. Am I considering the years it’s taking away? Oh no, not every time.…
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SO Much to say, so here I go…
Wow. Well… a lot has happened y’all! To start, I met the love of my life in June and I actually moved in with him 2-3 days before the end of July! I KNOW, RIGHT?! He proposed in August and our wedding is being planned for April/May of 2026! Besides…
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My History with Psychosis
And all that that entailed *TW: psychosis, cannabis, sharp objects, and sexual assault* The year was 2019 and I was attempting to self-medicate every chance I got to with cannabis. At the time, I had unprocessed trauma and I preferred to block it out than deal with it all together.…
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A Letter to my little self…
I’ve changed but not by much I know you always hoped things would get better… 20 years have passed and I can’t tell you that they have. We still cry at night. And we never gave up the habit of hiding and holding our breath in the hope that, magically,…
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Is Electroconvulsive Therapy worth it?
My Experience With ECT at AABBHH I’ll start by saying this: Whatever you have seen relating to ECT on television or in movies is inaccurate. And they usually showcase a character going through tremendous amounts of pain during their procedure. That was nowhere near my experience. The truth is that…
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Get To Know Me
The Q&A nobody asked for- but that I wanna give! LOL 1. What’s your favorite music to play in the morning? I love me some Sade but I specifically love listening to her album “Diamond Life” (1984) in the morning. Listening to “Why can’t we live together?” with some coffee……
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Hope Without Expectations
Suggestions from a wanna be nonconformist As odd as I am… As strange as I’ve shown up in spaces… And as abnormal as I’ve been – the society I’m surrounded by has still been able to instill in me the desire to be like everyone else around me. I understand…
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A Letter To My Friends and/or Family…
Damn. You found me. Sorry! I didn’t mean to sound so disappointed! But I sincerely am because if you were to read what I’ve written so far (I mean ALL OF IT) and you compare that to our interactions- you might think “Oh, she’s a big fat liar”. But: No,…
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Having A Mental Illness Is Like Having A Full-Time Job
I may not be working or studying right now and I was going to be extremely harsh and mean to myself today about it… but then I remembered something someone once told me years ago while I was crying to her on the phone… She said, “Nancy, having a mental…
Foolishly Happy 