mental-health
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My History with Psychosis
And all that that entailed *TW: psychosis, cannabis, sharp objects, and sexual assault* The year was 2019 and I was attempting to self-medicate every chance I got to with cannabis. At the time, I had unprocessed trauma and I preferred to block it out than deal with it all together.…
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A Letter to my little self…
I’ve changed but not by much I know you always hoped things would get better… 20 years have passed and I can’t tell you that they have. We still cry at night. And we never gave up the habit of hiding and holding our breath in the hope that, magically,…
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15 Things Keeping Me Alive Right Now
I’ve been feeling overwhelmingly depressed. As someone diagnosed with Persistent depressive disorder (with intermittent major depressive episodes), I know this adds up but still… it aches to get through the days, let alone the minutes and hours. But I wanted to celebrate and remind myself of all the things keeping…
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Is Electroconvulsive Therapy worth it?
My Experience With ECT at AABBHH I’ll start by saying this: Whatever you have seen relating to ECT on television or in movies is inaccurate. And they usually showcase a character going through tremendous amounts of pain during their procedure. That was nowhere near my experience. The truth is that…
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Get To Know Me
The Q&A nobody asked for- but that I wanna give! LOL 1. What’s your favorite music to play in the morning? I love me some Sade but I specifically love listening to her album “Diamond Life” (1984) in the morning. Listening to “Why can’t we live together?” with some coffee……
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Bonds. What are they? What pushes us towards bonding? What’s the point?
Even though this is my blog and I can write whatever I want whenever I want- I get stage fright! I get nervous! And I often think to myself before writing: “What’s the next trick I’m going to pull out of my sleeve? I have no clue!” But eventually-EVENTUALLY, my desire to…
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Being A Low-Energy Person In A Fast-Paced World
(Get Me Out Of Here) As I’m trying to mend the broken pieces of myself together, I still have a hunger, better yet a yearning, for the energy that other people possess. I can’t tell if I was built this way (as in, if I just by default have low-energy)…
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Having A Mental Illness Is Like Having A Full-Time Job
I may not be working or studying right now and I was going to be extremely harsh and mean to myself today about it… but then I remembered something someone once told me years ago while I was crying to her on the phone… She said, “Nancy, having a mental…
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My Relationship with Emotions
It’s been a hot mess, y’all! Today I saw my DBT therapist and I explained that I’ve been tracking my mood in the tracker she gave me. I showed her the sheet and we both recognized that I’ve been feeling manic-y. So instead of teaching me about Distress Tolerance like…
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Out of the Dark!
And it feels good! But a little bit too good… Yesterday, my DBT therapist gave me a daily mood tracker that is a tool to keep her and myself informed about my mood symptoms. At the end of each day, I’m supposed to record my mood and related factors. And…
Foolishly Happy 