Life
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Checkmate
I surrender! I think it’s just me (but I could be wrong of course) but I seem to be the only one around me who’s disgusted/sickened with having a body. I may sound really ungrateful because I can walk, I can run (but don’t want to… and it’s manageable to…
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Why having a blog feels like going outside naked
To me anyway… So far, I have had some positive experiences with this blog. People are starting to like my posts and/or commenting. It does feel good to be heard-especially when I have felt like a loner for the majority of my life. But I can’t help but feel naked…
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What it’s like to have BPD
In my life… I always figured I was different and that’s just how life worked. I didn’t categorize/classify my personality as a “disorder”. But I knew something was off about me. For example: when kids wanted to play games during recess, it was very difficult for me to articulate what…
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Are your observations accurate? Are you capable of handling reality for what it is? Versus what it isn’t?
Life isn’t easy. Well, it hasn’t been for me… I don’t know about you… but it being difficult led me to smoke cannabis. Not just here and there… but daily. Up to five times a day. It was definitely an addiction yet, I at the time I preferred existing in…
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This “slut” is self-aware.
What Now? I remember having really toxic friends in high school and in the very beginning of community college. It was a very frustrating time for me because I wanted friends so badly that I put up with a lot of bullying. They would call it “roasting” but I knew…
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Life without failure
Would be really anticlimactic now, wouldn’t it? …So why am I trying so hard to live without failing? I must sound confusing, I guess. But I think that I make sense of things… eventually. Even if it takes me a long time. And who’s to say anything about that? We have all…
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Hello, 911? …Where is the pause button?
Seriously… Where is it? Life is changing so fast each and every day… I feel as if I am craving to keep up, yet I am struggling with the basics and I feel like I’m being left behind. This isn’t a new feeling by any means. Yet, it’s getting kinda old and…
