Depression
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The Liberty that comes with Loss
Losing is scary. Depending on the experience, it can feel like you are being robbed spiritually, physically, or both ways. And when the loss is something beloved and treasured, it can feel like you are not the same as you were when that beloved person/thing/experience (etc.) was with you. I’ve…
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15 Things Keeping Me Alive Right Now
I’ve been feeling overwhelmingly depressed. As someone diagnosed with Persistent depressive disorder (with intermittent major depressive episodes), I know this adds up but still… it aches to get through the days, let alone the minutes and hours. But I wanted to celebrate and remind myself of all the things keeping…
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Is Electroconvulsive Therapy worth it?
My Experience With ECT at AABBHH I’ll start by saying this: Whatever you have seen relating to ECT on television or in movies is inaccurate. And they usually showcase a character going through tremendous amounts of pain during their procedure. That was nowhere near my experience. The truth is that…
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My Relationship with Emotions
It’s been a hot mess, y’all! Today I saw my DBT therapist and I explained that I’ve been tracking my mood in the tracker she gave me. I showed her the sheet and we both recognized that I’ve been feeling manic-y. So instead of teaching me about Distress Tolerance like…
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Out of the Dark!
And it feels good! But a little bit too good… Yesterday, my DBT therapist gave me a daily mood tracker that is a tool to keep her and myself informed about my mood symptoms. At the end of each day, I’m supposed to record my mood and related factors. And…
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Checkmate
I surrender! I think it’s just me (but I could be wrong of course) but I seem to be the only one around me who’s disgusted/sickened with having a body. I may sound really ungrateful because I can walk, I can run (but don’t want to… and it’s manageable to…
