Organizing

For clarity’s sake

Growing up, I always had a clean home but it wasn’t particularly tidy.

I don’t blame my parents because they simply always did their best and they prioritized keeping me fed, safe, and loved- which I’m very grateful for and will always cherish as a blessing.

My parents also never had the opportunity to learn or be taught how to organize so when I was 18 years old, I decided to change the way I had learned to do things and teach myself how to be organized because for my entire life I felt incomplete and uncomfortable in untidy spaces.

Back then I couldn’t pinpoint why I was so agitated and irritable but now that I’ve realized how important tidiness is for me, I have to adjust the environment I’m in so that I’m not so overwhelmed.

So, when I moved into my new home this year (to live with my fiancé and his mom), I didn’t feel comfortable changing the way they did things and where they placed things.

Eventually though, I did end up asking my fiancé if I could move things around in our bedroom and I was pleasantly surprised when he said I certainly could.

My fiancé even helped me hang an Abbey Road Beatle’s tapestry and it makes me so happy to see it there every day:

Then this week, I had become very frustrated and unhappy with the food in the kitchen because they were all over the place and there was nowhere to sit or eat.

It’s a small kitchen so I didn’t expect to have a lot of space but having the food all over the place, unorganized… that was too much and I was at my limit.

So, I asked if I could change the kitchen and add pantry shelves, and I got the go ahead, so I added two pantry shelves/units and now the kitchen is my second favorite room in the house ☺️

I’m still trying to figure out where to store the pots and pans but for now, I’m pretty happy with what I’ve done so far!

I may not be working or studying but knowing that I can keep a clean house brings me comfort.

I feel like cleaning and organizing gives me a sense of accomplishment and control in times where things around me feel chaotic.