Damn. You found me.
Sorry! I didn’t mean to sound so disappointed!
But I sincerely am because if you were to read what I’ve written so far (I mean ALL OF IT) and you compare that to our interactions- you might think “Oh, she’s a big fat liar”.
But:
No, I didn’t hide things from you to hurt you!
No, I didn’t fake feeling happy when we saw each other (despite me having mental illnesses).
But yes, I don’t like telling you every time we meet that I struggle!
And yes, it is really hard for me to keep it all together when I’m around you…
Yes, I’m unhinged, obsessive, and odd…
Yeah, I don’t want to ramble on and on to you about what frustrates me…
Because I created a space to do that already.
This is it.
This is my space.
And if you found it, it’s probably about time you realize who I am versus the idea and opinion you have of me with our interactions.
I hope you’re okay with recognizing that I’m a complicated person. And that I’m very opinionated and judgmental of myself and the world around me.
I hope you perceive me with the same care and attention we had for one another before you found my website/blog.
I’m recently just beginning to believe that I’m pretty damn interesting. But I still have the fear of disappointing people if I were to reveal all that I am to them.
But I won’t beg you to stay and I won’t hold on to our friendship if you want to go.
This space means something to me and will hopefully always be a space for me to wander in.
So although I’m madly embarrassed to know you read my blog posts…
Thank you for reading.
You’re a real one.
With Love,
Nancy
Foolishly Happy 
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