Are your observations accurate? Are you capable of handling reality for what it is? Versus what it isn’t?

Life isn’t easy. Well, it hasn’t been for me… I don’t know about you… but it being difficult led me to smoke cannabis. Not just here and there… but daily. Up to five times a day.

It was definitely an addiction yet, I at the time I preferred existing in that form rather than accepting life for what it was.

I actually didn’t visualize a life in which I didn’t smoke! I seriously felt like “this is my life now” and every time I tried to give it up, I retreated after periods of perceived misery to smoke once more.

I had psychosis two times. The second time was worse than the first and yet still, I didn’t want to let it go.

When I smoked and why I smoked, it was in order to live in an illusion. A version of experiencing life that was inaccurate and incomplete.

Some people may argue with me and think, “but cannabis helps me with PTSD”.

Does it though? Or are you running, reaching, craving to forget what needs to be addressed?

I remember struggling with regulating my feelings and instantly deciding to smoke in order to “forget my worries” through laughter and comfort food and bad company.

I believe that if you smoke as much as I did or as often as I did… you’re not really living life.

Nor are you handling it in a healthy way. A way that rewards you with progress and improvement.

If I said anything triggering in this post, I ask you to acknowledge those feelings and really think about exactly what is triggering you?

Is the concept of me telling you to let go of your pacifier and learn to cope in another way ruffling your feathers? Are you scared as I was to let it go? Do you also fear a life without it like I did?

These are all wonderful things to think about and I acknowledge that it’s not easy.

I have gone a little over 5 months without cannabis and I am proud of myself because of the work I’m putting in each day to not smoke, to feel my feelings, to acknowledge what living is truly like.

I am proud to say that I am living proof that not smoking is possible.

And yes, I’m not perfectly healthy by any means nor do I claim to be perfect.

But I hope my thoughts, ideas, insights can help you out along the way if applicable…