Who Am I?

(I’m getting closer to figuring some of that out)

Have you ever sat down and thought about all your actions, why they came to be, and the results/consequences of such actions? If you’re anything like me, you probably drive yourself a little crazy wondering why and how you decided to do certain things at certain times and are probably thinking to yourself… “what the hell is wrong with me?” And if you don’t do that and don’t think like I do, then what sets us so apart? And are you actually happy???? I’m half joking/half not because I think what I do enjoy about thinking so much is that I feel as if I’m constantly updating my point of view. Instead of sticking to the status quo, per say.

I used to think I could change this about myself but now I’m starting to think that the way I think might not be up to me anymore. I think due to whatever reasons in my life that I will always be an overthinker (whether that’s because I have mental illnesses and/or because of the way my brain developed as a baby/child). And that’s okay.

Anyways and either way, you may (or may not) be wondering if I have received my results from the tests I did in January. As someone who can’t wait to find out, I was disappointed to find out that my appointment had to be rescheduled for Monday (April 21st, 2025) at 12 P.M. so, no, I have yet to find out BUT once I do, I know I will have a lot to think about and accept.

I don’t know yet what it will say about me and I’m not sure if I’d feel comfortable sharing what it says about me. Not because of shame but because I don’t know how it’s going to affect me yet. I also know I don’t owe anyone an explanation as to why I am the way I am-but still. I don’t know and I look forward to knowing.

I’ll be updating y’all as soon as I’ve processed what I’ve learned.

And thank you for reading if you read my writing!